My feelings as well. Phillip who? He died? He was a junky? Not even a blip.

I think LKH's claim that it's still tearing Anita up would mean something if Anita EVER thought about Phillip EVER. Or visited his grave, or talked about him, or dreamed about him, or acknowledged his life and death in ANY way. If never thinking about or mentioning someone is a sign of being torn up about them then, sure, yeah, I'm real torn up too.