I was disturbed at first. But then I read some of her fiction, and more of her blogs, and now I think she's just bullshitting. She doesn't have the imagination for her characters to be "real" to her, and if they were real to her, she'd be able to remember things about them and they'd be more than hair and penis size. I think she's playing the role of what she thinks a Great Artiste should be, but it's all an act.