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[rantingmule.livejournal.com]

Small Blog Flog.



LKH is in italics, I am in disgust normal font.

I put in the soundtrack I listened to when Anita was first and very in love with Richard. But what I forgot is that it was a time when I was still very much in love with my first husband, Gary.

NO! Shock! Say it ain't so, Laurell!!! You mean to tell me you think about your ex when you think about Richard?! Because we all KNOW you didn't base him off of him!!!

Folks, do not fear my sarcasm.

I have no words to describe how painful it was to write about someone else in that first stage of deep love, while my own emotions were falling apart. It was exquisitely painful at times.

Because of COURSE she can't distance her own life from her work. That, dear children, would be PROFESSIONALISM, which LKH can't even SPELL, much less UNDERSTAND.

Comments

[ayako.livejournal.com]

Heh. XD

I got mixed messages from the last part of that entry.

relationships grow, or they die, but they don't stay the same. So I've put on the music I normally listen to, and put the old stuff away. Damn.

What's with that last "damn"? Regrets Laurell?

[rantingmule.livejournal.com]

Yeah, no kidding. :P

[judes.livejournal.com]

yawn.
sometimes i wish LKH would go back to those days of angstfulness where she actually wrote good books.
instead of now "omgluvluvluvjon!!!111" and writes only sex.
some authors need to be miserable to write good books.

[defiler-wyrm.livejournal.com]

tragedy is a muse, after all.

[mneiai.livejournal.com]

Has Gary ever said anything after the break up about it? You know, like "dude, my ex-wife turned into a psycho bitch!" or something?

[delphinapterus.livejournal.com]

*Putting on the optimistic hat*, maybe her finding new Richard music will mean some character development instead of the same broken record that we've had for the last books.

[temperance22.livejournal.com]

Quick! someone start sending her some richard music! *laughs*

[lightysnake.livejournal.com]

I really hope for Gary's sake, and everyone's actually, that he's different from Richard...last thing the world needs is another crazy stalker man continuously going through the motions

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The blog being flogged here can be found at http://blog.laurellkhamilton.org/index.php/site/you_cant_go_back/

Thursday, June 15, 2006

You can’t go back
Made a mistake yesterday. I thought maybe I should go back to the music that first reminded me of Richard all those years ago. Maybe that would make the sex scene go smoother. I put in the soundtrack I listened to when Anita was first and very in love with Richard. But what I forgot is that it was a time when I was still very much in love with my first husband, Gary. It was the music that I danced a very tiny Trinity to sleep to. It was the music to a time in my life that doesn't exist anymore. A time when I didn't realize that there was a happiness greater than what I had, or that at some level I was already beginning to be miserable. I know there was a time when Anita was madly in love with Richard, and I wasn't in love with my husband. I have no words to describe how painful it was to write about someone else in that first stage of deep love, while my own emotions were falling apart. It was exquisitely painful at times. Music can invoke memories, and I've spent two days listening to music that I now associate with a very hard time of my life. It isn't Richard music for me anymore, it's the sound track to the beginning of the end of my first marriage. Crap, no wonder I've been depressed. I was trying to recapture how Anita felt about Richard then, but I guess that old adage, you can't go back, applies here, too. I have to find new Richard music. New music that helps me think of him, and them as a couple. I have to move on to what they are now, not what they were years ago. Relationships grow, or they die, but they don't stay the same. So I've put on the music I normally listen to, and put the old stuff away. Damn.
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Posted by LKH on 06/15 at 08:22 AM