I've never felt real gagging while reading something, no matter how bad it is. But just now, honest to God, my throat constricted as I read her blog entry.
This: "I can't stop being who I am just because I love them, Anita. What do you need? It must be bad for you to call me, and be this worried.
...is probably the saddest thing I've read in a while. What LKH doesn't realize is that it's not her characters that speak to her, but her that's speaking through them. And what she has to say, very few people care about. Why is AB so popular? Because sex, no matter how badly written, sells. Especially if you package it under another name, so people who are afraid to buy real erotica can read it too. And Anita's guilt, advice and mental marathons? Is LKH's way of convincing herself that she didn't sell out. There's no other explanation for the inner conflict. LKH's or Anita's.
This morning, Edward came up in a conversation. The name, not the character. And it got me craving an AB book. So I started browsing the old books, but I couldn't finish a chapter. Because whenever I read Anita, I overanalyze anything she says, thinks or does...
Does anyone know if there's good AB fanfiction out there? I need it.
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Date: 2005-07-21 12:42 am (UTC)This:
"I can't stop being who I am just because I love them, Anita. What do you need? It must be bad for you to call me, and be this worried.
...is probably the saddest thing I've read in a while. What LKH doesn't realize is that it's not her characters that speak to her, but her that's speaking through them. And what she has to say, very few people care about. Why is AB so popular? Because sex, no matter how badly written, sells. Especially if you package it under another name, so people who are afraid to buy real erotica can read it too.
And Anita's guilt, advice and mental marathons? Is LKH's way of convincing herself that she didn't sell out. There's no other explanation for the inner conflict. LKH's or Anita's.
This morning, Edward came up in a conversation. The name, not the character. And it got me craving an AB book. So I started browsing the old books, but I couldn't finish a chapter. Because whenever I read Anita, I overanalyze anything she says, thinks or does...
Does anyone know if there's good AB fanfiction out there? I need it.